Evamaria Kulovits Photography

14/06/2024

Feels like the right time to birth this

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14/06/2022

letter to a teenage girl

eva,

i wish you would hear me
i wish my words could soften
your hands
pressed against your ears
i wish i could hold you
in my arms
i wish you could let me
love you
the way i wanted to be loved
when i was
you

there is a way
i know you don’t want to hear me
i know the world seems unfair
and bold
impossibly cruel
and bursting with possibilities
all at once

none of the syllables
from my mouth
make sense
in your high speed
ageing brain

and still
i wish
that whatever lands today
whatever tiny piece
of me
that is reflected
in your hungry eyes
your curious voice
lands
in your lap
and you will feel
my love
when it’s time
to pick it up

be bold
my love
be lavishing
with your joy
your radiance
your smile

let the world have a go
roll with it
rise with it
take your rest serious
and your play

take pleasure
in your creations
the connections
you make
the stars
that light up your sky
the love
the loss
the pain

don’t rush the process
you are not missing out
on anything
you are
so
on time
go left and right
and up and down
meander
and shoot forward
you will know when

ask all the questions
ask why
ask how
ask why
again
and never wait
for permission

there’s so much more
i want to say
i want you
to feel
and i know
i’m running out of time
you are already far away
so take this
my child
take this love
this bond
this knowing
which always was
already yours

****

sharing this poem for Upfront global and all the womxn who don't feel seen, who don't feel heard

this is the work 🔥

23/03/2022

MODEL CALL

I'm looking for one or two womxn to be photographed for a promo video on Saturday, April 2 at my Voorburg studio

21/02/2022

e m b o d i e d

deep pleasure happens
in the little moments
it's a practice
that takes a lot of (un)learning

and we might feel awkward at first
getting excited with the most simple things

warm fuzzy feelings
like a little child
from something like the sun
kissing our toes
ravelling in someone’s smile

once you open
and say yes to pleasure
unconditional pleasure
in the moment
with yourself
just as you are

it's a box of wonders
and it will fill you
for the rest of your life

when is the last time you got excited about looking at, feeling, moving and appreciating your body?

from last week's session at the studio with

10/02/2022

p e r s p e c t i v e

one more from the series of mermaids 🧜‍♀️ …
but is it a mermaid really?
am i falling?
floating?
dancing?
hiding?
showing off?

who knows really ...

the answer depends
on who is asking
and what they
want to see

even our very own perception
is only an interpretation
of reality

i'm staying curious
asking myself more questions
every time i come back
to look at
who i thought
i knew

09/02/2022

f r e e z e

anxiety
my old friend
you knocked
at my door

what i did?
i ran away
out
to the shore

and plunged
my burning brain
burying my tears
in her blue
naked fold

08/02/2022

m e r m a i d

drown
my face
in salt
and water
swirl
breathe
rejoice
my way
into
liberation

04/02/2022

i've been taking myself too seriously these past weeks.

it's a wonderful (haha!) and irritating pattern that i keep repeating. like a broken record in my head.

i get excited, i get nervous, then tight and then i spiral down the stairs of self-criticism ...

you're not doing enough.
you should have this figured out.
you are all over the place.
you are not ready.
now go back to your corner.
good girl.

i usually end up leaving things whenever they get hard. whenever the voices are too loud.

right now, it's hard and very confronting finding my way back into photography.

i want to make time for it, but i can't.
i can make time for it, but i lack inspiration.
adding to the list of 'but's.
it is becoming a thing on my list of things to do. and that's not what motivates me, that's not what lights me up and makes me want to get up in the morning screaming hell yes, let's do this!

just that.
i don't have anything else clever to say right now.

okay, maybe one advice: when you use red lipstick next time, make sure it doesn't stick on your teeth before you spend 30 minutes in front of the camera, haha! 🤦🏼‍♀️💄🤡

love you guys. have a restful weekend. i'm gonna find some soap!

30/01/2022

queendom
part II

stripped of color
i see her
roots
unforgettable

28/01/2022

just
a little
more
light
will
get
us
there

25/01/2022

i'm numb

where there was a spark
is a big
grey field
of noise
and nothingness
at the same time

obsolete phone calls
tears that run
can you not hold them back
for one more night

always a press conference
always an update

where can you park
your child's feelings
until 'they' decide
who
or what
will rule
tomorrow

these photos were taken back in november as a part of my self-portrait month, but they might as well have been taken today

there are so many photos and ideas within me
waiting to see the light

right now i can't find the words, the wit, to give them to you

just this
raw
pure
ugly
snotty
cries

my tears
are white
there is no physical harm
there is no physical abuse
i am a free
human being
and still
i feel
all those feels

end of ramble
dinner is burning