29/05/2026
Today is my 40th birthday. Somehow. My brother asked me a few days ago how old I was turning, saying: 'it must be nearly 40', then laughed when it was 40, then stopped laughing when he realised HE was nearly 40. Get rekt bro. Not that there's anything wrong with aging - I think society really has issues with women, in particular, aging... it's just... I don't feel like an adult.
Maybe none of us do.
I feel like I'm still figuring things out.
Like... I had my life "on track": job, husband, house...
And then went on this crazy adventure with my dog and took fifteen steps backwards in some ways. Unstable living situation (let's go permanent residence by the end of June so I don't need to worry about visas, PLEASE), renting again, and while my business is going, it hangs on the whims of people and the economy and trying to say: "I promise you, pet photography is something worthwhile - you should invest in learning it because beautiful photos of your pets are SUCH a gift...!" and hoping people will listen.
But let's see what the future holds. I'm hoping for my own little farm in the not-too-distant-future, maybe more in person workshops, and running lessons and workshops in German. I'm hoping for a new(ish) van so I can sleep out during winter without freezing to death, and maybe... maaaybbbeeee finally, my own little Journey puppy (big plans around this but let's see).
In the meantime, getting fit again, getting guidance to run and perform better in agility, trying to eat better and look after my health a little more, to continue being kind to myself when my brain doesn't want to cooperate, starting a new little project with my brother and Frey and getting excited about the potential there, if we can pull it off...
Or maybe I'll just... have a huge midlife crisis.
We'll see ๐