10/01/2023
Peut être que une petite retraite spirituelle sur une plage de Oaxaca México te ferais le plus grand bien toi. Qui en a les moyens on est tous dans une passage difficile...
Now that the New-Year madness is a bit behind us, and everyone said their wishes, it is time for me to put a little bit of my thoughts on paper, something I just never do, simply because I think personal things should remain secret as an artist. 🤫
I have to be honest, 2022 was an incredible year, professionally, but also a very difficult year on a personal level, many challenging moments, without going into details, it certainly has been one of the most difficult year so far (and still is). 🤯
I have been a professional artist for 28 years now, with ups and downs, but the past 8 years, I worked so hard to be where I am now, that I simply forgot to live and take the time. I just never stop, my brain never sleeps and it is certainly not a good thing on the long run. It did affect my personal life as well as my health. 🥵
I haven't seen my dogs for nearly 3 months now, I took over 250 planes, slept more in hotels than my own bed. I wish to slow down a little for this year, and hope to find the right balance between career, health and love. 😎💆🏻♂️❤️🩹
People who know me very well in the real life (there are not that many, you know who you are), knows how hard it is for me to open up, especially publicly like this. But it is part of the process for some changes. Hiding behind the "dj cap" did not necessarily did me good over the years...It would be a complete lie to tell you that I enjoy every single shows I play, and I would tell you the truth by saying that I'm done with this lifestyle. Airports, no sleep, eating whatever you can grab, and more things you'd never thought it actually exists...etc... 🏃🏻♀️🥵
Most people have no idea what it really is, the pressure to always deliver the very best, be at the top, always. Anxiety level 💯 Mentally and physically, it is very very, very hard.
🙅🏻♂️ I'm not a party guy, I do not drink alcohol, i never took any drug in my life, I don't go to after parties to get more "whatever" - I started this when I was 14 in my bedroom, simply for the love of this music that I like so much. 🎶
I was never interested touring the world for the "benefits" you could get as a "public figure". All I wanted is dance, play music, eventually make some too, it quickly escalated as my first and only job I ever had. 🍀
For that I'm grateful for you, supporting my art, listening to my music, and of course dancing on what I create all year long. This keeps me going, even thou I would not be able to stop making music, it's simply part of my DNA. 🧬
So what this message is all about? I'm not quite sure myself. It could sounds like a complain to some of you. I would understand that if you think so. I could sound like a therapy for some, maybe. I just need to get some stuff out of my chest for a bit, and not pretending everything is amazing. Social media does not reflect who I really am. Whatever you think I could be anyway, is probably wrong (or right?) - what you think of me is certainly not important to me, what's important to me is you. ✨
Thank you for the love, as sometimes, I need some too after all 😘
Wishing everyone an even better year than the previous one ✨
