11/01/2024
So for anyone who is struggling to turn thwir reality around it took me between 7 and 14 years to manifest the realitty of my dreams that I exist in now. From getting a ton of my moms travel brochures, to making a vision board putting it behind my sewing machine, which was the anchor and cage of my dreams at the time. To now today… I spent this week, my second in Cambodia, getting paid to write words, IN A POOL even on a few of the days, spending my day today for 17 hours In a tuk tuk around a 900 year old sacred ruins, the largest on the planet. Drinking beers and having CCR and Clapton sing alongs with our tuk tuk driver (because music is the great language between all humans). Living a life beyond my wildest dreams for very little effort just straight manifesting generator style!
NOW, know this, on the other end of things. No less than 5-10 times over that 7-14 year period did I want to kill myself, even made several attempts. In that time I was homeless, I then lived in a motorhome, I experienced more heart break, loss, and trauma than I ever imagined any human could ever endure. And between that, in the times I didnt want to die, I didnt know how I could possible survive.
SO PLEASE!!!!KEEP PUSHING, TRUDGING, TREADING, and just even stop and try to make it from one second to the next! Because on the other side of that CAN BE THE LIFE OF YOUR DREAMS.
Share your struggles with people, be vulnerable be honest with yourself and others about your true self. Because you never know who or how your experiences can inspire people and even save lives. and remember: BE KIND ALWAYS!!!! Imagine the worst day pf your life and imagine that everyone you meet is silently going through that EXACT THING right now in this moment.
How would that change the way you interact with yourself and others?
Can you imagine the world that we could create if we all just compassionately met each other where we all are out in the world without selfishness and malice. Without anger and hatred. With instead love, compassion and a willingness to hold space for the dreams we all are birthing so laboriously and painfully into existence.
Sending my love to all of you in whatever state this meets you in, know that you are always PERFECT, WHOLE & COMPLETE! there is nothing missing just keep pushing.
I love you! I will love you even harder untill you can love yourself, and I will love you still after. No matter where you are at in your journey.
Just keep going, keep pushing. You never know when the next worst thing that ever happened to you turns into the thing that actually makes your dreams come true. That pain is creating new life and a new world.
Anyway thats what I have to say after 13 hours in the largest temple complex in the world. My ancient church. Ooh and did I me tioned a bat s**t on my head today too. Hahah
