03/07/2023
Overwhelm. Feeling so little sometimes…
Literally, as physically in this amazing old church, Chiesa di San Lorenzo in the heart of Venice, Italy, where grandeur and magnificence were the norm a few hundreds of years ago….
Or figuratively, overwhelmed in today’s society where everything has become complicated it seems for an older soul, from relationships stressed between ego fears and wants for independence to seeking one’s peaceful path in the midst of the world chaos of these past 8 years or so…
Yet, all that pales compared to the pain in one’s heart when you realize turning 50, that those you cherish, those you regretfully took too many times for granted, who were there for you when you needed them, your support system really, are getting older too… one by one they are leaving this World to enter the next… and you feel alone, abandoned to the solitude of all those walls you built around you, so you would not get hurt again… (tried anyway…)
Some thought that you were the strong one… That you didn’t need anyone…
But because you liked to reflect that image socially, you let them think that way, you didn’t want to worry them, you love them so…
And that loud laughter of yours will certainly hide all that for sure, right?
You regret not opening up more, not voicing your own fears or pains, the truth about your emotional turmoil….. you were ashamed of your weaknesses. And now all that you kept inside is trapped there….
The kindness and love of those parents, those you could trust with your secrets… they are gone.
And you miss every one of them so deeply, that your eyes fill with tears at the very thought of them….
Where to turn for peace when grieving so? Gratefulness.
I Thank every day for the love of my dear ones, in this Life as in the next realm. I thank every day for each blessing on my Path, never too small… Gratefulness is a nurturing energy, bringing you a whole cup of goodness that you can feel warm your heart 💜
And I am grateful for each and every one of you too đź’ť
Aimée (Words by me)
