14/10/2024
This feeling is strange
Of being out, thinking you’re at home
Of wanting to call you for a quick chat
Being reminded you’re not here
I’m trying so hard, to learn from you
To be like you in your ways
Minus the big C of course
It’s strange how things before
Would not mean much
But now, the smallest things do
Every bite of Dark chocolate
Every lily I see
Everytime I’m by the Ganga
And so many more,
You are everywhere
I wish I could spend some more time with you
For you are/were the biggest part of my life
Flow by your side
With peace at last
Riding the waves
With courage at last
A little fire, starts with a spark in my head
Constantly sucked into visuals of you
Burning, but quiet
Us, looking, but quietly weeping
Like the fire you had in you is out
No more pain you said
And there was none
Many times I chuckle
At conversations I’ve made in my head
Instead of picking your call and saying
Hi what’s up
Maybe a hi, how are you?
Hi papa, how are you
On long drives
I think of our drives
And before you can say it
Yes, your car is faster than mine
No, I don’t want to race
Gone are the days when you’d say
Beta, your paunch is getting big
Beta, this is not good
But not anymore
Not because you’re not here
But because I’ve started my fitness journey
My motivation is you
My goal is that 18 minute plank
Just like you
It’s been a year, papa
So soon
It seems to fast,
But that’s time for us
We hope you’re well
Hi papa, how are you?
