03/10/2023
Hello, it's been awhile...
A lot's changed since we last spoke. Or maybe you're new here and we're just getting to know each other? Either way, it's time for a chat. I like my chats over a warm brew? or an Iced coffee? I guess it depends on the mood? What about you? What are you drinking?
The last time I properly used this page for business was back in my Post Modern Jukebox days. That already feels like a lifetime ago now. I guess it was a while ago now? But time sure has flown! It's a bit confusing.
I was enjoying and also feeling quite uncomfortable putting myself and my musical abilities out there for the world to see. It was quite an experience, despite having been in music most of my life, I hadnât really seen the realities of it yet? You know? When people really start to take notice of you, and have opinions and almost some control over what youâre doing. I thought I was prepared for that, but I guess I wasnât really ready? As the saying goes âyou donât know, until it happensâ...
The funny thing was, I never really felt âit happenedâ, itâs not like I rose to stardom or became this big name that everyone knew? (which Iâm kind of thankful for), so I guess thatâs why It hit weird. The trolling, the pressure, the loss of passion for something beautiful that no longer felt like mine but instead, everyone else's.
âGet to the pointâ I hear you thinking. The point is, this page used to be about music, a jazz & soul singer, promoting myself off the back of winning a competition (that Iâm still hugely grateful for and would go back and do again). But the harsh reality of showbiz is that it can be cruel, it can make you question your morals, it can crush every ounce of talent for the benefit of the viewer. And I lucked out, I realised, I didnât want to be a part of that environment. I didnât want to change me for other people, I wanted to grow me, for me. I lucked out because I figured that out before things became âBIGâ, before irreversible damage was done.
So with a lot of growth, and experience later (which looked like silence from the viewerâs perspective) I am taking hold of what is mine and sharing my gifts the way I want them shared, whether that's your thing or not. Iâm sharing things outside of the niche, outside of the âbeautyâ and âstandardâ of what is considered âin-right-nowâ because I think real down to earth, sometimes not great, sometimes great, is what everyone is needing right now (myself included). No more âbuild a b*tchâ and instead, a lot more âembrace your Witchâ kind of reality.
âWhat does that look like?â Iâm sure youâre not asking⊠Well, it means this page doesnât fit into a category anymore. Itâs not one thing, because I am not one thing. But it will include music, art, discovery, failure, laughter, crying, woodburning, creativity, and the reality of connection through multiple expressions. Because none of us are one thing, we are not a brand, a brand is part of us. We are so much more! How magical is that?
And you know whatâs even more magical? That we can choose to share that with others, and that we can choose whether we want to be a part of that or not.
So I guess itâs up to you now? What do you want to do?
