31/01/2022
A couple days in the middle of Yule and Christmas season I remember waking up at 2am and hearing my body say 'you need to go outside right now', and so I did in the middle of a rain drizzle. I placed my hands into the earth and just felt so creative I couldn't stop digging and drawing shapes with my hands and working with many directions.
And I'd like to share to be with so many of us that may not exactly know what's going on and have been shifting or feeling like plans have been going in all kinds of directions.
Last year I set out to move to France to go to school, and I found something deeper... the invitation to really dive into the core of what really drives me to create and share. In October, I arrived and found out my program had shifted gears that no longer resonated with me, and I chose to really enter the unknown and leave it despite all the pushing to make things work a certain way. That let go felt like a huge drop until I was reminded I could request my energy to come back (knowing this is not just the push of myself but of a whole community of people), and realizing there are so many more months I've got to exploring and planting here and a few other places that have really hit some heart strings and depth of my bones.
The people and communities I have met so far is already enough of a blessing, from cacao ceremonies, yoga and tea, roomie adventures to Southern France, street cats and planting seeds for growing things with others, impromptu trips to London, I just find that I'm being called to follow love- being, sharing, receiving, and creating it. I'm following the sun in and out thanks to this shift. I'm alive- like really alive- through feeling and tasting every bit of it. From having a good meditative ugly cry in the park as a wild cat walks up to me (this really happened) and deep gut laughter about re-enacting a Portlandia skit in freezing cold weather in front of Versailles after learning about all of the weird ass stuff royals used to do and dancing in the streets, life is ultimately for opening.
There is so much room for creation in the unknown. Thank you.