25/12/2023
|| My post-script musings ||
My haven from a perplexing and occasionally frightening world was, in many ways, the theatre. I was quite conscious of the fact that I never exactly fit in from a very young age. I was perceptive and attentive, and I felt at ease in my own mental environment. However, the outside world was a different place. I was a vulnerable target for bullies who tormented me because of my crippling shyness and anxiety, which I had since I was a young child. But the arts established a space where I felt secure speaking up. Writing theatre or movies was a visceral experience, and it was true.
Like many others, I have been compelled in recent months to consider my life, profession, and core values. I had big plans to read more books, finish projects that had been put on hold, spend more time with family, and practise meditation more when the world went on hiatus. Ironically, though, I've been busier than I've ever been right now; maybe I'm utilising my busyness as a coping method to get my mind off the tragedy of this moment.
I started thinking back on why I was initially drawn to the arts and films during the chaos of having to reschedule the release of my most recent films. My courage was bolstered by the arts, which also taught me how to interact with others and make a positive impact on the world.
Image Credit : Gautam Das
