10/08/2023
Hello.
I have been sort of "laying low" -for some time, meaning that I have not been that productive -than usually within messaging, communication, etc.
I have been setting up, my new apartment -and also in the here and there -have been doing some "official help & secure" -type of stuff. (In example, helped random bloke with tyre puncture on quite busy highway.)
He was really lucky, because he did not have spare tyre with him, and he was also little bit late, he was going to pickup his boy from daycare, etc -type of place.
Anyway, so I was just cruising around -and I was just in an coinsidencially around there. So he was not late or did not cause too much stress, or inconvinience to his journey.
I have sort of "road security" -type of vehicle, what's little bit, or actually quite a lot -different from other official reconginzed ambulance, firetruck, police car -etc -juristically protected & legally bindable (meaning rules, regulations, laws, and etc -type of litigation or juristical risk -type of stuff.)
So excuse me, that it is really complicated to "define" -what I do at work, or what I dont do -because I decide on situation bases.
Also, it is an question of Etiquette -and to this type of thing, I am only one -who can sort of be the guide, navigator or commander -in this type of situation.
I have been long long long long long time, studying a lot of different area's of science, in example: Lingvistics, Etymology, neuropsychology, mathematics, mechanics, telemetry, surgical equipment, manufacturing indrustry, security and defense & similar -type of work, which is highly higly classifiend and heavily protected, by multiple laws and stuff.
The interesting point of view in this, refering to myself -is that I also have been developing some of the laws, what are designed to keep people safe also in the future.
We live sort of an interesting and really dangerous times, because the society is more or less "polarized" and "broken", from here & there.
If I would quote something in here, I would probably quote "Calculus Lambda" -which is an philosophy + mathematics + engineering -written in interesting format.
I personally, have tried to avoid to "cheat" or "steal" -from somebody else, because it would have made the learning of things pointless.
Nevertheless - I allways had an choise, on key-decisions -what has involved myself, but it's an really complicated balance -between what kind of information, I personally should share to public messaging -in example, this page -and other my social media channels.
Also, at as in this moment - I am little bit "under the weather" -meaning that I have a flu, and I also broke my right (Tarsals) -meaning probably the "table bone", in your feet.
So now I have to use a cane, for couple of weeks.
I am starting to obviously getting old. Because I can feel all those athletic injuries all around my body.
Also, I should be taking Fatherhood leave, but I am not sure -where my Ms. Smith -is located at this moment.
She could come home, to check out our new "Secret Hideout".
Because I am an gentlemen, and also an officer - all around the world -it makes this time my departure, from my new "Private Military base / Hospital / Police Department" -or what ever I should call this place (I am not sure).
I have huge international network of contacts, collagues, business angels -etc.
There are so many, these kind of people -and it's allmost impossible to remember all of them at the same time.
One thing is for sure, I miss everyone of my collegues & other nice people, who are living all around the globe.
There is an obstacles, depencys and other mandatory procedure stuff, what is considered more or less -information, what should stay within "working place".
The effects, how first the Corona virus (meaning the pandemic in general), made during that time - and those decisions, what we had to do -to maintain and control the pandemic, and reach an satisfying solution in the end, was not easy things to do.
If you don' sort of understand yet, what I am trying to say -it would be simplifiedly this:
Things are complicated.
In example, working safety - what makes stuff safe, or unsafe, can vary a lot in depending on your personal viewpoint of the world, and your personal history etc.
I would like to share an moment, of when I returned from somewhere - I was working for Peacekeeping operations, it was not that interesting or dangerous what it might sound at first glance. But it's an type of an job, where you end up -because sense of duty and attitude of Serve & Protect -type of attitude and mentality.
Etymology, lingvistics, and criminal psychology -are really hard areas of sciense -what are quite large topics to begin to talk about.
It means that you have to have a lot of thirst of reading, to achieve that kind of knowledge in generally speaking.
To me personally - at this moment, it does not make sense -that why I am still stuck in here, and not going to get my Queen's back to home?
I cant reveal our family secret's and even if I COULD I WOULD NEVER DO THAT KIND OF AN THING!
What I am trying to do, while organizing my personal belongings and building my new "Bird's Nest" (just an nickname, for my home.)
1. I made safety device, for self protection usage's for HER.
- In case, she would have need to defend her self against me.
(This is our secret)
2. I have to warn HER and HER friends though.
-- If you have been hanging around with wrong people, asking questions from people who are not the one's -who are the Family, you can not completely be sure -that you are on the right path.
Meaning that if something involves me, you need to ask from me -personally & face to face. And you need to be able, to tell me the truth and only the truth.
And I am not going to do this, in public -I will arrange an secure & comftable enviroment for us, or we are going to do it together.
I am not - an somebody, who you should try to distract or benefit for your own gains.
You will be asking yourself for problems, what you can not overcome or solve in any way, this is an "Captains Orders" -type of thing.
Nobody - and that means that NOBODY -can enter an other man's bunk, quarters, steal his rifle, ammo, or etc.
And it does not matter - where you are from, in my "work area" -those who have been working in an indrustry, knows how the rules and regulations works.
This is really complicated stuff, because this topic in context - involves Geopolitical, juristical, technological, stuff & risks.
One thing, what keeps digging the back of my head, and is getting me really really really dangerous mindset -is Trust & Faith & Love.
The personal experiences, what I have got in life an in my career -has tought me to be really really really careful. And usually, it has been easiest to do -while working alone.
That has been one form, how I have been able to protect my friends an collagues, because my professional background -I can go and do stuff, what other people could not maybe be able to do.
The thing is - that for me, there is no backup.
And there will not BE an backup - or "SECOND IN COMMAND" -vittu niinkun mitä vittua?
Think about it this way - somebody tries to mutiny, the captain in an boat.
That kind of situation.
In that sort of situation, it would have been failure of leadership -and that's pretty f**king f**ked up situation to be in, if you are in managing position in any type of organization.
It's the same thing, what come's to being an responsible parent -in example.
I would not leave my dog, child or wife -or anynody in trouble, but I can't say that for all of the other people, who tries to follow me or tries to "imitate" or "sabotage" me.
I had an situation, with somebody who is in MY team -that there is a awful f**king confusion and this "bloke" -is somebody I will demand to show himself, to me -and face his judgement.
If he is still as scared, as what he was last time -I saw him.
My decision is final - I can not trust him, or forgive him -if he will not tell me.
He said to me, that he is affraid to speak with me.
Because he tried to steal my Fiance.
I will shoot him, in the head -if my suspcisions are right.
Dont worry - I will make the necessary criminal report, in before so then other police personel will ensure, that he will have fair trial, and he will not be harmed in the process.
This is not an choise, this is an order -to him.
I have got similar type of lesson, many times -during my career as in an professional soldier -or an doctor, or an engineer, or an artist.
It is something, what I have to pass to the next one, and it is my oblication -to make sure, that this person -will know how did he fail.
The truth "may set you free" -if you have merciful judge.
Rest is assured - my peresonal experience is that in Geopolitical table -which I have been working with within different roles in different organization unit's and multiple different roles and jobs.
This personal variety of experience, is an curse & blessing -to be honest.
It makes stuff incredibly complitaced to maintain under control, schedule, plan and "put in action".
This is getting little bit too long, maybe I will "seal the Deal" -and just also say that there is an possibility of me getting married soon.
But it's still "work in progress" -state.
We should meet and agree, the rest of the plan together.
I dont know, what will happen - but one thing is for sure.
I want to see my daughter, and her mama, and grandmama.
It's time, to me to "Fly back home".
Question is.... Am I going to China, USA, Africa, Europe, or India?
I dont know yet...
I guess that I will figure it out, as soon as I got my acute lung / fewer / recovery routine ready.
So, dont be alarmed too much - if I am filtering un-necessary distractions. (Refering to enviromental distractions, refering to social behauviour in an new living quarters & adaptation, to new enviroment.
The rest is too complicated, f**ked up and bizarre -story to tell at this moment, so I will maybe leave it for later.
I need to try maintain my form / finish my projects, so I can departure from this "Bunker".
"Guy" -Over & out.
