13/07/2023
/kõigile siinolijatele ühekorraga ja rahvusvaheliselt/
Dear all followers who have still stayed and who have left during last years for obvious reasons of not receiving any new content anymore
Following is a little unexpected message to all who still remember what was this account for...
Over 4 years ago, in spring 2019 I decided that year will be my last for paid photography work, a harmful hobby during 9 years that grew to serious and heavy responsibility towards all the lovely people who trusted me to document their memories. I shot all my booked couple stories and weddings throughtout last one in October 2019 thinking of closing this door for myself permanently by then.
And I did.
/The reason of the main decision behind deserve another, longer story/
Anyway
I stopped payment for webpage hosting, years of work carefully curated work with blog was deleted (which I regret now, a little).
I planned to keep my Canon lenses which every one had a special personal story related, but as months went by not using them I ended up selling every piece of it together with both high-end camera bodies.
The bridges were burned.
I was done.
Covid madness inbetween, years fast-forward the process of healing started suddenly about year ago. It was a mix of recovering from mental damage of overthinking, regret of under-documenting my own life and the main thing - the urge for visual satisfaction that I forced to push away - deep down it started to signal again. I still couldn’t kill it during recent years.
Didn’t expect that.
At all.
Few years my only gear to document essential things was plain iphone. It started to feel once again insufficient for a such important process like documenting memories. At first more seroiusly for my own life and by babysteps for others too.
Now I am sitting here, favorite minimal Fuji setup in a hand.
Processed some frames from family trip and just covered small event which I wanted to test my gut feeling..
And it feels..
natural.
If you read so far, you probably are here not by accident. I know you, you know me, through photographs at least and I thank you for that support.
I cannot promise to present any new content here or frequent blog posts from shiny new webpage, but I feel I needed to put this plain message that I’m not done. Maybe in a slighlty different form, content and setup but..
I’m still around.