23/04/2026
Photodump / thoughts 💭 Even though I’m creating and I love to do collages and I love to do mixed media I feel more and more overwhelmed with all the possibilities. I feel this endless need for perfection even though I’m trying to convince myself I don’t need to be perfect. I just need to create. I need to get my stuff out there. But the reality is I’m finding myself in a spiral of: where to go with that picture what to do with it? Is the thing I’m doing really the best thing I can do or would there be a better possibility?
Obviously, that spiral stops me from actually creating paralysed. I diversify my skills head so much for that now it feels like a simple photo is never enough anymore. Because I could make it it makes me creation a collage or a fancy Photoshop edit. I could do more editorial colour grading. I’ve been shooting for brands, musicians, for people for the street. And then the end it’s all about branding myself and I just don’t fit a nook or a little box. Nowadays, being a photographer it feels as if a painter is just allowed to use a certain brush and a certain type of paint.
it’s all about positioning yourself on the market and I remember hearing myself say “I don’t want to have to live off of photography”
I used to say that because it’s true - because I don’t want to brand myself because I don’t want to limit myself to one style or one niche.
I want to do the concerts that mean a lot to me and I want to do the protest and journalistic approaches that I love doing. I want to create beautiful portraits and collages.
But it feels like I am always failing and not fitting in because I failed to limit myself to something.
I’ve had so many faith where I thought I found my way. I used to do a lot of cosplay photography and then brand things and then throw and published for different blogs and papers. I pursuit concept,concert and street photography and it feels like I lived 1 million lives. Maybe that’s the part that everybody means when they say artists are usually depressed. Or maybe that’s just me. Am I even an artist? Where do I draw the line between skill and artistry?
