08/01/2025
I have had a really tough year. I lost some really important people, and the grieving process was long, triggering and painful. I had to scale my life back to begin to understand, unpack and address a diagnosis of complex PTSD and how it has affected my life. It’s been a wild ride, but I’m working on taking control of my hijacked nervous system so I can begin to heal.
Today I am grateful for flowers and sunshine, my family & friends, my tiny garden, slow and quiet days, and so many other things. I am grateful for myself, for not giving up on myself, and for showing up, even when it’s hard, even when I’m anxious and depressed, even when I’m not perfect. I am grateful for loving myself and for learning to be kind to myself.
This year, I will nourish my body like it is an act of quiet rebellion in memory of the sister I lost to AUD & a lifelong ED. I will love myself even when it feels like no one else does. I will protect my peace. I will lean into ease. I will prioritize rest balanced with discipline. I will put my own mask on first, because I can’t be there for anyone when I am falling apart.
Here’s to another spin around the sun. I’m thankful for the lessons and the blessings, and for working to create a beautiful, peaceful life filled with ease and joy. I am starting to believe that is possible, and it feels good.
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