09/01/2026
Bo***ir was why I became a photographer.
It’s all I wanted to do! create art with women for women, and I did.
For many years I was “Lady Luck Studios” it was incredibly rewarding and I also made loads of mistakes.
Being an artist and building a business were two very separate things, and I wasn’t very good at business.
It created my self worth to plummet, why can’t I be good at this thing?! My work mustn’t be good enough….
But it wasn’t true.
I just wasn’t good at business. Cash flow, ordering, marketing, sales….it did not come easy for me, and I thought that meant I couldn’t do it.
“I should have it figured out by now”
“I’m too old to struggle”
“Everyone else has it figured out”
“I guess this dream isn’t for me”
I was plagued with un worthiness, self doubt, comparison and judgment. Everyone would say I was so confident, but on the inside I was just keeping my head above water….until I wasn’t.
I have been evicted, struggled to buy groceries, late payments, disconnection notices, no Christmas presents, second hand everything and so much shame.
Having to say no to my kids over and over again when I deeply wanted to say yes.
I was living in fight or flight. Anxiety, stress, anger, shame, guilt. Deep heavy emotions.
And I lost my why.
Photography became desperation, chasing and resulted in me almost giving it all up….almost.
It has also saved me. Because to me it’s freedom. It’s life giving, and how my brain literally sees the world.
I honestly am not sure where this post is coming from, I don’t share these things with everyone, but I am being called back to my roots in a way that I haven’t felt in a long time.
Maybe you feel the same? And maybe I’m sharing so you don’t feel so quite alone,I’m not sure.
But I do know that if we keep suppressing our dreams, and magic that literally comes from how we see the world, our worlds will become dim.
And I’m tired of dim.
***ir