07/05/2021
LANGUISH - you feeling it?
Remember that scene in Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets when Harry gets injured during a quidditch game, and Professor Lockhart comes over and does some weird spell that makes Harry’s arm bend like Gumby?
I’ve always thought of that scene is funny, because while everyone around him is audibly grossed out (as they should be) Harry just kinda sits there with big eyes, speechless.
Lately, I feel a little like Harry. Things feel so far outside of my control and I’m too emotionally exhausted to react to every little bend in my plans for myself. Instead, I assume the role of wide-eyed observer, taking in the good with the bad, feeling sad and angry and sorry for myself and grateful and hopeful and compassion for others all at the same time. Do you know what you get when you mix all of those feelings together, each one fighting to cancel out another?
LANGUISH.
You know what else?
Tired. You get tired.
So here’s my loving reminder to feel your feelings and to rest. If you’re not okay, my DM’s are open. I want people to feel all kinds of things when they see my photos and read my words but NEVER unseen. If you’ve lost your job, or a loved one, or a friendship, or your sanity over these past 162 years of dealing with COVID, I am so so sorry. Sending you a big ol’ virtual elbow bump and this photo of my beautiful friend Lucie and her dad Marc, because it sure as heck can’t make a day worse 😘