02/04/2026
I sit back and look at my life, and in many ways, I’ve been fortunate in love.
My first love, Liz, was never meant to go the distance for reasons life made clear, and though that chapter ended, it gave me something beautiful in Sarah Jayne. Because of that, we found a way to stay connected, respectful, and friendly in our own way. She will always matter.
Then came Sandy, a genuinely good soul. Even though we went our separate ways, there was always a quiet respect between us. Time created distance, but never erased the kindness that existed. That kind of ending says a lot about two people.
And then Mishelle. Nearly two decades of life, memories, and the gift of our daughters, Nikita and Nadia. What we built together will always be a part of me. Even now, I still see her as one of my closest friends. We ended our marriage with honesty, communication, and mutual respect, the way I believe all relationships should be handled, even when they come to an end.
These women were, in many ways, like angels in my life. They taught me love, patience, and what it means to care for someone beyond yourself. Because of those experiences, I never imagined I would one day find myself in something so different.
My last relationship showed me a side of connection I hadn’t experienced before. Where there should have been openness, there was avoidance. Where there should have been understanding, there was conflict. Communication, especially after years together, is everything, even when it’s uncomfortable. Without it, things slowly break down.
It took me a long time to see it clearly. I was looking through rose coloured glasses, holding onto the idea of what I thought it was, placing her on a pedestal she never truly stood on. Letting go of that illusion has been one of the hardest parts.
The last ten months have tested me in ways I didn’t expect. But there’s clarity now. I can see the contrast, the lessons, and the truth of it all.
And maybe that’s the point.
Not to hold onto the darkness, but to recognise it, learn from it, and then choose something better.
Remove what doesn’t serve you. Hold onto what was real. And keep moving toward the light.
