18/07/2022
When I came back to this work I was excited and eager. I had visions of where I could take it, how I could “re-establish” myself in the professional community and ultimately how I could support our family - like I had done in the past.
But I’m learning pretty quickly that the more I work towards these visions the more I need to refine my alignment with the living reality of them.
Working a creative job (from home) and also being a primary carer for a dependent simultaneously is proper fu**ed. I hate feeling torn between two roles - because I end up resenting them both. Time that I can dedicate to my self and my art is so precious and challenging to attain. (This is absolutely not an invitation for an insta coach to parade into my DMs and try and sell me the idea that I can DO IT ALL if I just get more moist for the dream 🫠)
So I’ve made some decisions about my work to hopefully shift this experience and make it more enjoyable and in alignment with my current desires.
+ I want to reframe the idea of being “hired”, I want to co create with you. This means working with folk who energetically align with me. To get there, I’ll be trialling a new screening process.
+ I’m limiting my bookings to one shoot per month
+I’m going to be adjusting my gallery delivery times and shaking up the way galleries are finalised.
I’ve been slowly deconstructing the business of my work - bit by bit the beliefs are untangling 🖕 see ya never hustle culture.
For now I’m only creating because it feels good to create. (Which means more self portrait sessions because they are such a bloody gift to myself)
I’m sure things will change as I gain more personal space over the next few years - but through this season, alleviating pressure and expectations is primary.
So vibes are probably going to be shifting over here, I’m not the person I was 5 months ago, let alone 5 years ago when I started this page. If you want to stay, witness, interact, support - you are so welcome, I love you being here. If things develop into a space you’re not vibing, the unfollow button can be a friend.
Treat yourself
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