16/05/2026
18 MONTHS 🤬
Exactly this time 18 months ago I was being consoled over the phone by my closest girlfriend who took over the reigns from my closest lifelong friend.
The reigns were then taken up by 3 more people whom I highly regard & love. All by messages. Just keeping me breathing air. None will be named. I’m forever grateful to them, but Ive always felt like a burden. Watching all of their lives be completely successful (especially this weekend) I beam with pride for them, but right now I’m rolled in a ball a shadow of my former self jealous of them living their lives, while I feel like a burden wanting to kill myself.
No family to help me. Just 2 very traumatised kelpies & messages of non stop support is the only reason I’m still here fighting with determination & strength I didn’t know I possess.
This photo was literally taken the afternoon before I was tricked by a male friend of 30 years. This photo represented me at my happiest. Visiting my friends at their farm with all their kelpies. My happy place. No longer my friends as I pushed them away with my burdens, & anger.
8 hours after this photo was taken I was held captive, pinned down unable to escape & sexually assaulted numerous times wanting to die. The hideous offence committed by a man I trusted, & have known & thought of as my family, & his kids & partner all thought of as family to me.
This hideous crime committed against me as a disabled 53 year old woman unable to fight back has stopped me from living my already hard life. The offender stole from me any happiness I had left. Now too scared to leave my home. When I do manage to go out, it comes with weeks, days, hours, minutes of planning & insurmountable courage, & help from places I never knew existed.
The were beyond outstanding as my first responders, but the crime happened in NSW & I have been in the hands of their deplorable pathetic Detective hands since. The offender yet to be interviewed living his life as normal. Well known & highly regarded in his community.
It’s time to speak out on social media as it’s quite obvious the detective in charge doesn’t give a rats arse about me. Shame on him 🤬
