28/02/2026
So, tonight, as I sit outside here again, dining 🍲🥂, ‘I spy’ 👁️ a metal Goblet, some Mateus Rose, and a bowl of Garlic Prawns!!😏 It’s definitely not such a nice evening, and pretty sad really, 😢to think that here I am, ‘celebrating’ a major milestone date in my life, ALL ALONE, 😢 and contending with some BIG memories, and emotions 😢 I DID say, life wasn’t meant to be easy, at some stage, I believe, but ffs, it WASN’T meant to be so damned unfair either, or lonely!😒 I know many have been in similar situations🙄 and worse, and have handled it in their own ways, and life WILL go
on after the weekend, but it makes me very sad, to think about!😢 How insignificant we can become!!!😢 How insignificant now am I!? 😞 I actually forget what it feels like to be ‘taken out to dinner’ by someone who genuinely desires me and my company, and that IS, demoralising!😢 I’m NOT old! I’m NOT unworthy of love, yet here I sit, as usual 😞AND on such a milestone date, left all alone with my memories and emotions!?😒 I’m not a great fan of drinking out of metal, but hey THIS Goblet is 50 years old! 🙄😁 A gift from memory, from my husband’s twin sister, however it would seem Mateus Rose, has not ‘stood the test of time’ as well😂 and has a ‘new’ bottle ( I guess ‘new’ COULD be anytime over the last 50 years🤔, who knows, 🤷🏼♀️but it was our ‘special’ wine back then, in the 70’s 🤔😉 and in all honesty, I think it was because of the cute shape of the bottle more than anything……….I think maybe if I Googled it now, I’d find it was ‘popular’ for putting candles in when emptied 😂😂😂😊….. The question is ALWAYS there😒😞☹️🤔……. WHY? But hey, way to make one feel very alone and insignificant, so Mateus Rose, YOU are my companion tonight, and we will see this ‘50th Wedding Anniversary Date’ out right to the end! Music is needed again I feel, but tonight NO, not the sentimental, sad, romantic, memory inducing songs of the 70’s, but those that will allow me to remember all the good times! 28/2/1976 you will forever more, bring me happy memories, so right now, I’m choosing to ‘celebrate’ that date, before a new day, a new week, a new month, and a new season starts tomorrow, let alone ‘a new phase’!😒🙄☹️🤷🏼♀️ I will NEVER ‘celebrate’ a 50th Wedding Anniversary Date again, and in truth I really can’t say 🥂cheers, to the next 50😢 cos THAT’S pretty much an impossibility, cos I won’t still be here by 2076!!!!😢 Sobering thought, but many of us won’t be😞 so best I just finish off now, 🙄 thanks for the memories and here’s to the future, whatever it will be and for however long it will be! 🥂 To YOU Mauzzie!
