05/02/2026
Even tombois get women's health issues.
(Content/trigger warning - female reproductive health.)
I have a gigantic uterine fibroid.
I'm not ok with it.
It was first discovered 18 months ago after a random week of super heavy clotty bleeding and heavy bleeding in general I thought was normal, apparentlyits not...
The fibroid measured 115 mm wide. Like a grapefruit. My GP said it's the equivalent to being 20 weeks pregnant.
For me and MY brain, to even consider being pregnant makes me feel awful, gross, alien. I cannot at all compute it.
I am NOT and NEVER have been maternal.
Even having this thing inside me is making me very uncomfortable.
I wanted a hysterectomy a year ago.
So I'd be MORE than glad to get rid of this.
But no, the gynaecologist said "lose weight first and here, have a Mirena and hysteroscopy in the meantime"...
Fast forward to Sunday.
Laying on my bed, under the fan and poking at my belly.
I pressed around my abdomen...didn't feel right. Hasn't felt right for a while.
It's bigger, way way bigger.
It has its own visual pulse FFS.
I made a GP appointment straight away which I had today.
She felt my abdomen and said..."You're the equivalent of being 30 weeks pregnant.
I felt ill.
She gave me another ultrasound referral.
And now we begin this process all over again.
However this time - with a very very likely view for a hysterectomy. FINALLY.
I NEED THIS OUT OF ME.
This mass. Alien. This is NOT my body.
It's NOT ME. Not mine.
Can't come soon enough.
A maternity photoshoot I'll NEVER have.
So, check your bodies. Even and especially if you're alone and not touched my anyone else. Anything lumpy, bumpy, pulsating, bloaty, pressure all the time...see your doctor.
And advocate like F.
