06/01/2026
• This is a Mother's Day post 🌿
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Mother's day for me is weird. Because while I am thankful for my own babies and acknowledge the blessing it is to have them, I also grieve not having my own mom with me here to walk with me through this season. That day was happy and sad for me and I just didn't have the capacity to post about it. But now I am!
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When people ask me what having 3 kids is like, I say busy. But I think "full" is a more appropriate word. My heart is full of love and gratitude. There is always a kid or 2 in my arms or on my lap. The house is full of noise and constant mess. The car is full of carseats and toys that never seem to make it back inside. My mind is full of to do lists. And my hours each day are full of meeting the needs of these three tiny humans.
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The hardest part about motherhood for me is child care. Because my mom would have been that for us, it stings every time I am scrambling to find someone to watch the kids. And also the mental pull of wanting to be with them all the time so I don't miss a thing, while also trying to work, and have a social life, and be involved in our church, and keep our house somewhat tidy. 🙃
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Owen will turn one in about a month and Dean will be 5 this year. The days linger sometimes, but these little years are flying by. And some days it feels like we are barely surviving. But they love me anyways.
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I am met my Zoey's messy hair and big blue eyes every morning as she tells me it's time to wake up. She crawls in my bed and hugs me and tells me she loves me. Dean acts like he hasn't seen me for days every time I walk into a room and all he wants is to be near me. Owen smiles every time I look his way. They show me grace every day.
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Having these babies has given me a glimpse into the way my mom loved me. And it makes my heart ache that I didn't get to fully appreciate that realization while she was still here. Just watching them play makes my heart swell and my eyes fill with tears. Don't get me wrong, they are all wild. We just raise wild babies I guess. But they are more than I could have asked for and I love their little personalities so much. I am thankful God trusted me to guide them through this life and have a front row seat at watching them grow.
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Motherhood has a way of solidifying your faith. Because you truly have to surrender. Surrender your wants, your control, your plans... and lay it all down. I pray over my children all the time. We take them to church, read them bible stories, talk about Memaw in heaven and explain how you get there. Nothing in this life means anything if we don't know Jesus. And in some round about way, motherhood taught me that.
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I love being a mom. I love them, will protect and defend them, prioritize time with them. This season is precious to me and I miss my mom more than any words could explain. But God knew this would be part of my story, and has placed moms in my life that walk with me. I am so grateful to be a mother •
