Untold Tales of a Born Loser

05/11/2026

Wandered all my life
down one path or another
mostly stumbling after others
trying to keep up.
I just wanted to be seen.
I wanted to matter.
I never really mattered to anyone,
especially to me. Do I now?
I don't know. Probably not.
Sometimes all I want is to get to the end of the road.
Sometimes all I want is to find whatever joy I can
along the way.
I would be fine either way.
This life has been incredibly lonely.
It's been a life, though. I guess that is something.

01/11/2026

Winter chilled her heart.
She drifted away from the angels.
Pulled further down by icy currents
leaving behind all her ghosts.

12/24/2025

Ran into a wall of birds on our way to Watertown a while back. I hate the movie Birds. I watched it over 30 years ago, and I still have nightmares.

12/05/2025

It's the quiet moments alone
that surrounds us with our self.

11/30/2025

A walk in the surreal darkness
awakening in my mind.

11/29/2025

Floating up through the darkness,
I see the light ahead, but I never get any closer.
I'm drowning in my own black thoughts.
I'll take you with me, my friend.

11/27/2025

The sun despises me and
my gloom that overshadows everything.
The beams of light leak in
painting the darkness,
but never touches anything.

11/26/2025

The Hole in my Heart

It's crept up on again,
hiding within forever.
I asked you for nothing
and lay decrepit in your distance.

11/25/2025

11/24/2025