05/20/2026
When life is hard, it’s okay to find moments of joy. Flowers from our weddings 🫶🏽
The first 5 images were all taken on a 35mm film point and shoot. I spent lots of time earlier this spring finally editing the digitals from our first two weddings and scanning the film from all 3. It was honestly really hard to do because looking at photos of my mom made me both really happy and really sad at the same time.
When my mom was diagnosed with cancer, we knew there was a possibility that she would not be with us a year and a half later to celebrate in Bar Harbor. So when we got engaged, we planned to have a small wedding in Buffalo at the end of that summer so our families could be there and we could celebrate with my mom. One of her goals was to see us get married. So when her health took a turn for the worst, we decided to make it happen a month before we had planned. It was the most special day we could have asked for and I’ll be forever grateful that she was there.
When Labor Day (our original Buffalo wedding date) came a week after my mom passed away, with the whole family there - even those from Florida and Washington-, we gathered the family for something happy instead of something sad. I wore the dress my mom was wearing when she married my dad, we had a laid back ceremony in my parents backyard overlooking Lake Erie, and my uncle made a big Colombian sancocho for everyone over the fire pit.
Nobody talks about the grief that comes along with planning a wedding without the person you always thought would be there, or knowing that this might be the last milestone someone you love sees, or losing someone close to the day people say will be the “happiest day of your life.” Don’t put that pressure on yourself. It’s 100% normal to have a mix of feelings on your wedding day anyway. And you don’t need to feel guilty for feeling happy and sad at the same time. I’ll always recommend just doing what feels right to you and your partner. I’m so glad we did and I’ll treasure those memories forever. If you’re going through something similar, just know I understand.