10/08/2026
I’m 34, I’ve been a video producer for over 10 years, and I’m embarrassed to admit...
1. I chose to stay in Montana to do this work, and a lot of the time it feels like I’m building without a map. Some days I wonder if I’m doing it wrong.
2. I’ve spent years trying to prove myself to people who weren’t even watching. Imposter syndrome has stuck with me longer than I like to admit.
3. Some of my biggest work over the last five years is with nonprofits and education grants, and I can’t share any of it. Meanwhile, I scroll past other creators posting their wins, and I feel like I’m falling behind, even though the work is some of the best I’ve ever done.
4. For a long time, I felt like I had to earn my place. Even now, I sometimes struggle to believe in my work.
5. I’ve been going to therapy because the pressure I put on myself was starting to affect everything else in my life.
6. I’m proud of the hip hop community I’ve helped build, but part of me still thinks it’s too good to be true.
7. And honestly, part of me wonders if my voice deserves to be heard at all. But I figure if I needed to hear this when I was starting out, someone else does too.
I’m sharing this because sometimes the work that matters most is the work nobody sees. If you feel like you’re building without a map, you’re not alone. Follow along. We’re doing this 1% at a time. 🤝
