06/09/2026
To the woman who lost her spark.... it is ok babe... you will get it back... Believe in yourself... I don't share publicly my story often... But I feel called to in this moment.... Once I lived a life that I settled for...I was happy and content with life and where I was going...but then 2020 hit and something shifted in me...I started my spiritual journey.... I won't got into much of it but for me I found my version of God...My version of a higher power.... I started to believe in something more than just me....a collective...As you change, not everyone around you is suppose to stay on that journey with you. That's OK. I spent 17 years with one person and I don't regret a thing.... I gave all of myself, until the time had come to complete the cycle.... The next 2 years gutted me.... I fully died. The version of me that I had always been and had always settled for had to die.... All my identities lost....and all that was left was me.
Over the last 2 years I have rebuilt who I am. What do I look like, what do I enjoy, what do I want my life to look like... No I didn't do it all right.... I got a little lost and a lot sad. I HAD TO. I had to feel it in order to heal it.... As I closed so many chapters... so many ties to my past have cut...divine doors finally being closed, leaving only behind the many lessons and more growth than one thought possible.
So to that woman in the thick of it... I see you. I have been you... I ran a business and tried to be a single mom through it all. At times thought I wouldn't make it... but let me tell you, you really can.... It gets so good!!! Just believe in it... Believe you are worthy of it all... Ask the universe to SHOW YOU HOW GOOD IT CAN GET!!!! Then give it time.
THAT glow... That is of someone who has been through it, and through it she learned to love and forgive herself... She knows she is human and this is the life she signed up for.... good days and bad.... But focusing on gratitude, makes the bad days a little easier!!!
I would invite you to be more gentle with yourself. Speak more kindly to yourself. Love yourself. You don't have to be perfect... that is what makes you unique!!!
Much love friends!!
Ash
