06/07/2026
For the most part I take things slow with a big focus on being slow to react and respond. This brings me the most peace and comfort. While also giving me a chance to process any information and come to an actual meaningful response.
Most people operate at a higher frequency than I do. I'm not going to tell you which is right or wrong. What I will tell you is how this impacts my life and why I will never let it go. I prioritize peace, my mental and physical health. If I start taking on this higher/faster frequency, it drains me. Something I have realized is that people in a higher frequency than myself often enjoy my company. It's a relief from what I am told. What I need people to realize is my social battery is on E.
Lifeguards, police, firefighters all are trained to help people in dire situations. They are also trained to take care of themselves first (not in a selfish way). If they can't do that, then they can't help others. For instance, if a life guard is helping someone who is drowning but they (victim) is too panicked and pulling the lifeguard under they both may drown. People now tend to think anything is a dire situation if it involves them.
Sometimes, people in life want help, but are too hard headed or close-minded to actually receive it (to include myself) I have also come to a point where I CANNOT endure a conversation that isn't speaking life and including God. By this I mean no uneeded negativity. If you arent trying to fix the problem and talk about that in a positive way, it turns into "trauma dumping". The other person unloads everything onto you (which I have endured willingly). They walk away lighter but I am left with all that trauma/drama. Not just in my mind, I take it on emotionally and physically. I expect to hear back and kinda wrap things up after some time. This never happens. I do this to close a loop that others want left open. Kind of like an open invitation to be treated however they want to. Or because they just wanted to unload it and leave you stuck with it because THEY feel better.
So I am a "come at me correct or not at all" kind of guy.
I'm good with isolation but others take offense. Possibly because I am "taking my ball and going home" God will have you go through these things to protect you and often to show others he has set you apart. Instead jealousy creates scoffing and slander. This is why I always say to read the Bible with your own eyes. When you have had enough of the lies, you should seek the truth. No more hearsay, no more "this is MY truth" no more "that doesnt fit my personal beliefs (often covered by someone to scared to face conviction and repentance). So unless and until people start taking accountability and sharing lessons to stop all the hate, absolutely nothing will change. Own your mistakes! I say this KNOWING the right people will eventually see it because a big majority of what I post was given to me by God.
I'm not giving up on life, rather the world. Perhaps this is what "losing your flesh" feels like.
Anyone else this way? How do you navigate socializing? If more were obedient, it would be a better right? Maybe not the whole world but to the ones who are actively trying to live a life with Jesus at the forefront.
