Eternal Nyx

01/27/2026

2026 Winter Storm

12/19/2025

Cool thing about my Blind Eyes other than the blind stuff? Their color.

People have said my eyes change based on what I wear, and guess what, they do. The desaturated green-gray base, is highly susceptible to Rayleigh scattering (the same reason the sky looks blue).

Why though? I have what's known as Central heterochromia, which is typically labeled under the "Hazel" box since Hazel = Misc. That said, we actually have TWO colors here, not one. Instead of the colors blending like a watercolor painting, I have two distinct zones.

My base eye color is a slate green. This means technically, my eyes are slate green. In cases of CH, the outermost color is technically considered the "true" eye color.

The amber ring is a "burst" of melanin right at the center. Think of it like a clear contact lense with an amber iris ring on top of a green eye. There's no blending, just copy paste.

So, while my VISION is essentially navigating a 4K world in 120p, I see the 4k of the world using my hands and other senses, but mostly my hands. I feel everything, from the textures of thing's im purchasing, to the tiniest nubs on a bottle to tell it apart from another one.

11/06/2025

📣 Mutual Aid / Trans Health Crisis 📣

Me and Cat lost our doctor, and she lost her state insurance. We need a way to fill our meds, not just our HRT, but all of our meds. Plume and similar options cost $100+/month. We already lost SNAP, we can't afford that.

Local clinics? Won’t take my insurance, or new patients. The one that did told us today: “We’re federally funded. We can’t do HRT anymore, so we can't work with you. Sorry.”

Now she’s out of meds.
We’ve tried every resource, every clinic, every quiet route.

If you know any safe clinics, refill programs, or mutual aid options, please send them our way.

10/12/2025

10/10/2025

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05/03/2025

Good morning 🌄🌞

Tell me something interesting today that made you smile or giggle!

Self care Saturday

03/21/2025

Im prepping my 1 year 6 month updated testosterone video. I like to awnser questions for those just starting or thinking about starting. I like to help provide the information you may not find online or in a medical document.

This is me opening the floor for QNA. I might awnser some here. Some will be saved for the video.

Ask me anything about my transition. Wanna be nosy gross weird or invasive? Well nows your chance. I've posted NSFW blogs and vlogs before I have no shame.

My only rule is playing nice in the comment sections.

Ask away!

03/07/2025

New gender just dropped: Titanium-Infused! 🦾 I asked for top surgery, I got arm surgery. Close enough? 😂

03/06/2025

I called the authorities when I broke my arm. Same day. 16th.
It started with the hotel. We got back after my surgery and I was still groggy and under the influence of anesthesia. I asked the desk worker how to access the CCTV footage so that we could confirm DL did indeed assault me, and have Dancing Lady cover any medical fees. They said they could only release it to police with a report. Fair enough.
I called the non emergency police department phone number since it felt like the more appropriate choice.
I told her I want to file a report and I am very autistic. I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm slow with a learning disability please help me gently.
She never took my name or information. She asked for a brief summary of the story. Determined "no crime". Refused to help me, refused to let me file a report since no crime was committed, refused to even access the CCTV footage. Told me to try a personal injury attorney.

So I did. I cried for the night and woke up February 17th ready to try again. I called every attorney in Boone. All of them just referred me to the NCBAR website. Which is how I found them. But I've kept looking. Either way it was a dead end.
There is a social worker who knows I'm being screened for DID and knows my mental health and trauma who has stayed in contact and is trying to get the CCTV for me. But that's not turned up anything

March 3rd, I'm assaulted in my hotel room and have to call the police again. Details to follow later on but the result was Cat, Myself and Buddy having to check out of the hotel.
When we checked out I asked if I could file an incident report about the broken arm. They got the general manager for me.
She was floored. She said any time anyone calls from her hotel the police are supposed to come, even if it's just to file a report at the front desk. She asked about my arm and I told her the full story. Her jaw was on the floor. She said she had a note about a guest injury that day but she was completely unaware the details or severity.
She agreed it shouldn't be her mess to clean. The police should've filed a report. But she agree