10/25/2026
I have a lot I want to say, and it's always hard not to write a book😅
MNP turned 9 years old in August. And it's bittersweet.
On one hand, I'm so incredibly grateful for all that I've built and all the lives I've had the joy of being a part of.
On the other, I feel so much grief for all the potential that hasn't gotten to take form just yet. For the vision I've carried for this business for so long, and the reality that I've only really had the capacity to show up at about 25% of what I've always envisioned.
As a neurodivergent, life does not come easy for me. It never has. Some days I feel like after all the time and energy it takes just to maintain the current, theres not enough of me leftover to do anything more than just survive. Being a single mom, navigating life, working through your own healing, and trying to build a business that actually provides for you and your family is HARD.
Like, really hard.
There's so much of myself that I want to pour into this business. So much I want to create, so many ideas I want to bring to life, so much potential I can feel in it.
And sometimes it feels like I'm constantly trying to catch up to the life I want to build while just trying to keep up with the life I'm living.
I beat myself up over that gap more than I'd like to admit.
I look at where I am versus where I thought I'd be by now, and it's so easy to focus on everything I haven't done. Everything I haven't built. Everything I haven't figured out yet.
But then I see things like these words and reviews, and I'm reminded to stop for a second.
Because this business isn't perfect. It doesn't look the way I always imagined it would by now.
But it's mine.
It's me. It's something I built from nothing, with my heart and my soul. And even in the seasons when I haven't been able to give it everything I wanted to, it's still been here. Still growing in its own ways. Still giving me the opportunity to be a part of people's lives and create things that mean something to them.
And I need that reminder.
That I can be grateful for what I've built and still grieve what I haven't. That I can be proud of myself and still wish things looked different. That I can love this business and want so much more for it without constantly making myself feel like I'm failing it.
Life has been rough. And I've been doing a lot of work on myself. Really feeling things instead of pushing them away. Giving myself space. Learning to set boundaries. Trying to heal in ways I haven't allowed myself to before.
And I'm realizing just how much of my life I've spent beating myself up for not being able to do more, be more, build more.
When sometimes, just living through everything life brings while continuing to show up for the people you love and the things you care about is a whole lot in itself.
I still have so many dreams for this business. So much I want to do with it. I'm not giving up on any of that.
But I want to get better at appreciating what I've built along the way, instead of only ever seeing how far I still have to go.
Nine years of this business of mine. Nine years of people trusting me with their memories, inviting me into their lives, and allowing me to create something meaningful for them.
To everyone who's been a part of this journey, thank you. Truly. You have no idea how much it means to me. 🤍
