07/01/2025
“Another year has come and another year has passed. It hasn’t been the best but hey, at least it’s not my last.”
This last year has been rough. Which is an understatement. Hell, the last decade hasn’t been the best if we’re being honest. I’ve been left broken, battered, and bruised, be it physically, emotionally, or mentally. It’s been tough. Really fu***ng tough. I’m still here though.
I’ve learned a lot in 365 days. I’ve learned how much I can take without breaking. I’ve learned how to make boundaries. I’ve learned my self worth. I put the work in to be a better person. Someone I can hopefully be proud of in the future. It was a lot of work, and not just physically but mentally and emotionally too. I’m not at the finish line, not by a long shot, but I’m not being thrown across the starting line like I was last year.
My life is a complete 180 from where it was a year ago. It took me months to figure out how to learn how to live my life again. I’m extremely thankful for everyone who was here for me during those times, and are still there for me now. Am I where I want to be in life? No. Do I wake up every single day depressed and wishing I wasn’t here? Also no. I’m happy to be alive. For the first time in years. It’s a wonderfully peaceful feeling to not feel like someone’s dragging me down with them every second of every day.
As I finally sit and fully close the last chapter of my life, I realize how fortunate I am. I’m making progress towards loving who I am, and that’s a lot more than I thought I deserved before. Sometimes the happy ending you deserve comes from a bad thing ending.
Remember to look out for your friends.
“As I look back this year it’s as clear as can be,
bad times are tough but not tougher than me.”
