08/09/2016
{Summer of Song} Time for another installment of my collaboration with Allison Shellaway! This week's lyric was:
"The first things that she took from me were selfishness and sleep / She broke a thousand heirlooms I was never meant to keep / She filled my life with color, cancelled plans and trashed my car / but none of that is ever who we are" - from "The Mother" by Brandi Carlile
When Allison gave me this lyric, I knew at the first line that it was about Saoirse for me. Oh, the sleep she took...I'm not sure she ever managed to rid me of selfishness as completely as she rid me of quiet nights. In truth, no matter what else I ever wanted to be, it was nothing compared to my wanting to be a mother. And this girl made it a trial by fire. The most difficult, the most humbling, the most exasperating job I've ever had. But that face...I'd do it again in a heartbeat.