02/08/2026
Unmasking 🥹 After years of speculation I finally decided to go for an autism evaluation. From that I found out that I am, in fact, Autistic. AuDHD to be exact (autistim + adhd). I have been diagnosed with ADHD for a long time, but even before that I always knew it was there. Getting the Autism diagnosis felt like Christmas morning for me. Huge release. It explains litterly everything. ALL. OF. IT. I see my entire past in a totally different light and in the past month since I got the diagnosis I have been so much more kind and gentle to myself. There’s a pretty hefty dose of grief involved too. I pushed thru wayyy too many things in life and burnt myself out more times than I can count, 3-4 of which were pretty damn severe. All because I was told constantly that I am “too dramatic” or “too sensitive” or worse “stop being such a pain in the ass” by most people in my life in my younger years. From hearing it so many times and from SO many different people I figured that it must be true. Well I am done with that now. And I want the world to know about it so that when you encounter this new version of me who is very careful about protecting my energy that it’s not a reflection of you 🥰. I have so much more to say but not entirely sure how to say it. That’s another part of this whole thing, realizing the reason why words tend to fail me and why I prefer visual art. For me, this is the easiest place to say it. The only people who really read my posts and thumb thru my stories are people who are in my life, and I life it this way. Makes it easier to communicate big stuff like this. So if you are reading this- thank you 🙏🏻😘😉☺️ this image is from when I first started to unmask back in early 2018. Wayyy before I even thought I was autistic or before me decided to love it Amsterdam or any of it. The journey has been amazing and I am looking forward to what’s next.