02/09/2026
I made this film last year, and I’ve been holding onto it ever since. I originally planned to release it as part of a collaboration with a charity and a clothing company, and we were in talks about using the film to raise awareness, but unfortunately that collaboration never came to fruition. I’d like to say, though, that both of them were incredibly kind and supportive throughout.
I also reached out to a number of other charities about the film, but because of its content, none of them wanted to touch it. Which I still find quite difficult to understand, because I believe these are exactly the conversations we should be having. Su***de, addiction, depression and the reality of what those things can look like aren’t always comfortable subjects, but avoiding them doesn’t make them go away.
There are scenes near the beginning of this film that I wish I could tell you were just props. They weren’t. That was my living room. It was all real. I remember slumping down in that room after work one day, looking around at everything and realising that I needed something to focus on. I needed a project that would keep my mind occupied while I tried to heal. And I figured people need to see this. They need to see what this can actually look like when nobody is watching, rather than the cleaned up or sanitised version that we’re often more comfortable talking about. So I picked up my camera and started filming there and then.
Looking back on it a year later, there are a lot of things I would do differently now. I’ve learned a huge amount about filmmaking since then, and I’m certainly not the same filmmaker I was when I made it. But I’m also not the same person I was. That’s part of why I’ve decided to release it as it is. It’s raw because it came from a very real place in my life. It wasn’t made by somebody imagining what that darkness might feel like; it was made while I was actually experiencing it.
I’ll probably lose some followers by sharing this. I know it isn’t the kind of thing everyone will want to watch, and I understand that. But I think it’s more important to put it out there than to worry about how it might affect my following or how people might perceive me. If someone watching this recognises themselves in it, or recognises what a friend, partner or family member might be going through, and it makes them realise that they aren’t alone, then releasing it will have been worthwhile.
Since making this film, I’ve sought help, and I’m in a very different place now. I’m not sharing this because I have everything figured out, or because I think making a film somehow fixed things. It didn’t. Getting help did. So if you’re experiencing anything that feels familiar in this film, please talk to somebody and get help. You don’t have to wait until you reach the point shown here, and you don’t have to deal with it on your own.
I made Maybe Tomorrow because I needed something to keep me focused while I tried to find my way out of a very dark place. I’m releasing it now, during su***de prevention awareness month, because I hope that, for somebody watching it, it might remind them that there is still a tomorrow.
Maybe Tomorrow is a short film I made just over a year ago, during ...
