18/04/2026
Hey,
A couple of images from another quick getaway in wonderful North Devon.โค๏ธ
There should of been more, but whilst trying to protect the camera from being sand blasted I knocked some key settings, and failed to notice, I did manage to salvage these 2.
This was a brief moment of relative peace in the current brutal emotional period I'm firmly in the middle of, which is only about to worsen.
Mum is losing her brave fight against cancer and it could be only a hours left now.
We all have wildly differing relationships with our parents but I don't imagine I could of been any closer with mine, the current stark, consuming, bleak reality of finally saying goodbye to them both now, I'm finding extremely hard to reconcile and process.
My life hasn't quite gone the way I thought it would and I am really ok with that. What was always such a comfort and solace, was my parents, who were my safety net/escape hatch, I've genuinely loved spending so much time with them.
Losing Dad suddenly was and still is heart breaking but I was plunged headfirst in to looking after mum, which at times has been profoundly difficult and challenging however we have had so many good times together, our surprise trip to her beloved Ashton Gate being a highlight.โฝ๐ดโช๏ธ
Running all aspects of mums life has given me purpose, (yes I did resent it at times) but with that purpose now ending I cant see a any path ahead for me if I'm being honest, or even if I want to look for one, looking after her needs and always trying to find a little something to make her life just that little bit nicer, for nearly 4 years, is hugely difficult to relinquish, making Dad happy and latterly mum has been such good fun.
I just wanted to put some thoughts down in writing rather than for them to be constantly swirling around my tired head.
I'm sure ill look at this post later and think of many better choices for words, but in this moment, with how I'm feeling, this is the best I've got.
I'm sorry to put this out there on a sunny Saturday.
Best
Kev x
