09/07/2024
I am no stranger to crying in clothing stores.
As a short and somewhat round woman, I’ve struggled my entire life to find clothes that fit me properly.
I’ve never, ever felt good shopping.
Some months ago, when I realized that I was fighting to fit into a 3x, when the Men’s 2X jacket my company gave me didn’t fit, and everything that came from online had to be sent back, I felt defeated.
But I needed to take back control.
I’ve been working on some things, and I’ve made some positive changes.
And now, nothing in my closet fits me anymore. I need to purge the clothes I HAD to buy, simply because it fit. Suddenly, I can find options when I’m shopping and it’s such a great feeling.
When I went from a 24 to an 18 in pants, it was a day for celebration and I am elated that XL shirts are comfortable.
My biggest non-scale goal is shopping in “Regular” stores.
Today, I went to do some work things with my friend and while we were out, she wanted to go to Sooley.
I’ve always admired the Sooley clothes, but never crossed the threshold because there was nothing there for me. But, I love Susan so we went.
I spied a piece I loved the color of and was envious. I wished I could have one like it.
“Try it” Megan, the owner urged.
Before I knew it, I was in the fitting room with options. Things that fit me and made me feel beautiful.
Megan was so gracious and sweet with her measuring tape, explaining how the cut of things would change how things look and what was possible. To not just fit me, but also look amazing.
As I stood at the checkout, I thanked her. I thanked her at least 15 times and then burst into tears.
I’m still in a size 18 body and would never have gone in there for fear of disappointment or judgement and it was the exact opposite experience.
I cried in a store today - because I was so happy.
That hour long errand was life changing.
