ArcticBlond22-A Spiritual Journey

30/07/2023

So very profound I can relate

I was never a loner. I was always surrounded by people. I was the one laughing and making everyone laugh in the group. For the most part, I was a happy soul. But then, life happened. I realized that people are not that real. I realized that relationships are so fickle. I realized that people can fake it so perfectly that you can’t even blame yourself. And it took me time to absorb all those lessons, one heartbreak after another. Even in friendship, even with friends who swore on their mom, even they lied to me. So you see, I lost that smile on me. I lost that innocence in my heart. I started to withdraw from the crowd. I became a lost puppy on the road who wanted to trust some human but was just too shaken by the betrayal.

So I took the lonely road. I chose to smile and stay away. I chose peace over people. I chose loneliness over the gang. I chose books over the trips. And I chose myself over love. Was it hard? It bloody ripped me apart at times. That was not me. I had to force myself to stay away. But I did. I felt frustrated. I was angry. I wanted to break free. I wanted to trust again. I wanted to make new friends, to love again. But I did not. And slowly, I realized the silver lining in the dark path I took. I came closer to myself. I started looking back at things with more maturity and perspective. I started to feel things more. And I talked to myself a lot, about people, about relationships, about mistakes, about betrayals, about forgiveness, and about my dreams.

I know most of you would already hate me and laugh at me for being this “depressed, negative, and loser” of a person. But you don’t know what life is and what it makes you. Things change people, the pain, the suffering. You evolve. You dig into the deepest part of your soul. And you are no more the same person. You become an old soul, wiser, more patient, with more depth. You see beyond the surface now. You know when it’s just a waste of time. So you save yourself, your time, your emotions, and your energy. You know that you will know when some soul will be worth it. And you wait for that soul.

~ Rahul Kaushik
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30/07/2023

Amen 🙏🏻

08/07/2023

Celebrating my 1st year on Facebook. Thank you for your continuing support. I could never have made it without you. 🙏🤗🎉

20/06/2023

via The Minds Journal ❤️

09/06/2023

05/06/2023

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The door to my heart will always open. But I’ve renovated the porch and you’ll have to step up to reach it these days.

I was always the one to be counted on, even when it came to counting myself out. But then, when I started to grow into my self preservation, I recognized the imbalance. I took off the super hero cape and had a big dose of reality. It is old energy to think that doing everything for everyone and putting myself last, makes me a good person. It doesn’t make me a bad person, or a selfish person, to put myself on my list of priorities or my backbone where my door mat used to be. It was when I set a new standard to the treatment I would accept, put in place the boundaries of how far I was willing to go, and followed through, that I quickly noticed who the ‘ones who stay to feed the soil’ were. As the ones who used to come to ‘grab the fruit’ fell away, once they realize they had to step up to reach them. But there can be balance. Where people filled with integrity meet each other, a place that is fair for all. A place where the soil and the fruit are rich and bountiful, and everyone shares in the harvest. That’s where I’ll meet whoever shows up, with open arms. Stacie Martin